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Today I nestled up in my covers and started reading a text book for school. Four hours later I woke up with the book still propped open and gum in my mouth. I'm assuming I only woke up because I really had to pee and was starting to dream about food. It was obviously lunch time.

It's always awesome analyzing pregnancy dreams. I hate doing this, but sometimes they're so bizarre I HAVE to tell someone, like Taylor. He always just laughs and says, "you're crazy." A common dream of mine is actually about him. In my dream I'm not married, or not married to him. But his face will pop up and I realize I suddenly have feelings for this random face. Then I start to put the pieces together that I in fact am not going to end up marrying a co-worker at the mall, because I'm already married to Taylor. And then I'm always sooo relieved after I'm revealed this truth. My dream this afternoon involved me and him living together, casually, and I kept worrying about what my parents thought. Everyone was okay with it, still I was confused. Then it dawned on me that TWO years ago we got sealed together and have spent almost everyday together since. HOW DO YOU FORGET YOU'RE MARRIED THAT MANY TIMES?

Anyways. I'm happy to announce that as of maybe two weeks ago, I am finally feeling better. General Conference was actually the last time I threw up from nausea. However, I actually threw up this morning because I ate too much oatmeal for my belly's liking. Like when lap-band patients eat too much, their body automatically throws up the excess food for them because there's nowhere for it to go but up. It's so nice to wake up in the morning and not feel like s***. lol. Excuse my strong words. I think I swore all summer long. ahh.

The boxes are slowly being organized and crap is being discarded. Taylor took a sick day off from work (he really was sick) and painted the baby's room the exact color I wanted. I came home from school and didn't know whether to cry to squeal in happiness. Every time I walk past, I smile, because it is so happy and cheery and ready, unlike me. Also, I am making dinner now. And doing laundry. And cleaning the kitchen. Such small simple tasks, but pretty big for me. It's good. It's preparing me for........labor!! AHHH!!!!! DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!! (I'm secretly crossing my fingers that this whole time I've been carrying twins, they'll do a c-section instead, and I'll go home with two prizes.) Everyone, cross their fingers this is the case.